through the dark

i seem to have been at a loss for words for quite some time, hence a lack of blogging.  my world as i've known it has tilted on its axis a bit.  there have been a lot of changes...which take me some time to adjust to.  it seems that just as soon as i feel like i'm getting back to 'normal' something else comes up.  in a year i have moved, severed a family relationship, seen my mom overcome breast cancer, welcomed my bff's daughter into the world, and most recently i've been laid off a job i've been at for 4 years.  good times.  

anyway, all that to say that i know the life changes will only contine to come full speed ahead.  i've spent so much time in the last 9 or 10 months trying to live my life to the fullest and jumping on opportunities that come my way, that i inadvertantly lost sight of the one thing that in my mind should come first.  i even tried to convince myself that my relationship with Christ was where it needed to be, but in a sense where there was so much hardship i also felt incredibly blessed.  i just felt like i didn't want to rock the boat too much by complaining or commiserating over the state of my life.  my faith has been on autopilot.  and now, well, i'm trying to refocus where my heart and my life should be.

onward and forward...